Now many of you who are reading this probably wonder what the hell happened with this whole deal about a random comment on flickr I made. Well as many of you know I am an honest person, and it is the attribute of honesty which I value above all others. I don't care much about superficial things such as the looks of people behind their computer screen on SL, more about the actual person behind it and their character. Recent events with my best friend having to actually leave SL due to fighting cancer, and another one of my closest and best friends on here not being on as much as usual due to also fighting cancer started me thinking about something. Then the revelation to hear from 2 more friends that their parents were currently fighting cancer and getting told explicit details of how the treatment was affecting them personally, seeing someone they love fight for their lives being powerless to do much other than offer their love and support reminded me back to each and every time I saw the 3 of my RL grandparents pass due to cancer itself, and the battles they fought.
Then I log into SL as I usually did. Then I was informed by a reliable source that someone from my past had resurfaced back into the scene. This person was none other than my ex-gf C.D., now in the form of the designer at the focus of this topic. Now many of you may remember, at one stage I was head over heels for this girl. Then I found out the whole relationship was founded upon lies. The biggest of these, was the fact that she was leaving SL due to having cancer.
Now at one stage, C.D. told me that she had terminal cancer and only was given 6 months to live. Now me being the caring person I am, and having faith in the person behind the screen telling me this, I believed every word. However, when she described the type of cancer she had, giving me vague details about the cancer itself and the treatment she was undergoing I started to become a little suspicious, especially when I spoke to a friend whose father passed from the same style of cancer she claimed to have had and when her descriptions of each treatment she was undergoing changed from day to day, I reached out to express my condolences to her RL sister on Myspace, as having seen family members of my own pass in RL I could relate to what she must be going thru and wanted to sympathize with her. I was in complete shock when I was told that I must be mistaken and that C.D. was not sick and that I misunderstood.
In light of this new information, I thanked her sister for letting me know the truth, and wished her aunt a speedy recovery, and logged into SL once more. Her sister responded to me once again apologizing for whatever confusion was caused. Now with this information, I went and confided in a few of my closest friends on SL, asking what kind of person would lie about this? However I decided to sit on this information and see whether or not the truth would be revealed to me with time. Eventually relations became even more strained as the new-found knowledge I had was eating me up inside. The fact I actually cared to the point where my RL demeanour suffered (and was noted by work colleagues) due to me being angry at the world for punishing someone I cared about got me even more worked up and I confronted C.D. about this new revelation and a few more that I had found out in talking with people.
Anyhow, I found out lie upon lie had been told to me over the tenure of our relationship and that the whole thing itself was founded upon lies. I now realized that I had overstepped the mark and that SL had affected my RL too much, as I am a very trusting person by general nature, however these revelations shocked me to my core, making me want to leave SL, as I didn't know who could be trusted anymore. However, C.D. became too 'ill' to actually play SL anymore, and as such threw a leaving SL 'party' with her friends while I was at RL work following a dramatic NC that explained it all along with a very photoshopped picture that left me and many many others unconvinced.
So upon C.D. 'leaving' SL the truth of this matter and extent of her deceptions didn't go beyond the partys that already knew. However, recently it emerged that C.D was running around in the A.E. alt which she has had hidden the whole time we were together and was planning to release a new collection of clothes. Now I knew she was as A.E. for a while, and cared nothing of the fact that the people at her 'going away' party were all in full knowledge that she planned to retreat to this alt, and I generally avoided contact with said people due to now knowing they could not be trusted.
When it came to the point of hearing graphically how ill a friends father was battling cancer online I snapped. I had to draw attention to how this one person, could make a mockery of all people battling cancer and I posted a comment on flickr in haste. It was laced with sarcasm, and was poorly worded, however it did get a reaction, which is all I hoped, however many people out there totally misconstrued how it was intended, mainly due my own haste and anger over this whole situation. Yes I am totally angry that people who know the extent of her lies could now be supporting her as though she did no wrong. No I don't believe myself to be perfect (I'm far from it, and as such, endeavour to better myself with each passing day) and what I wrote I can easily see how it was read by all the people who have now lambasted me for making it. However as you can see, I was only trying to expose this person for what they have done, my job as a blogger is to inform and entertain and my over-riding sense of altruism made me act in the way as to which to give these people information on the person with which they were supporting, and hope that in this knowledge that they could make a conscious decision as to whether to support her or not, as I would do anything to keep people from falling for the same abundance of lies she told me.
As for the Runway magazine thing, I am just sorry that I was never given a chance to explain my side of the story prior to them removing my article. I hope this sheds some insight into why I said what I said, and while it may have seemed very bad, I think it had to be said in such a way as to draw attention to an issue which affects us all. I may have gone about things in an unprofessional way in some peoples eyes, but I was only acting with getting the truth out there as my main objective. I can live with any consequence of these actions, as I know I was acting with the truth in mind, but for people to accuse me of inciting drama and whatnot, I have to ask, was I the one who told people I only had a short time to live and left SL under the pretense that I had to battle cancer months ago? Am I the one who made a mockery of those who use SL as an escape to get away from their RL, and think it is right to take advantage of those who care about you and mess with their emotions by making such false claims? Am I wrong to try warn people to stay away from people who partake in such activities? I guess only time will tell and I would like everyone to know that from now on, if you want to comment on this issue, I will leave this blog open for now, but please know that I am big enough to admit the way in which I drew attention to this persons actions was a mistake, lets see if she can do the same in explaining her actions.
P.S. to my friends and their families who are currently battling cancer, you all know my thoughts and well wishes are with you.